It feels infinitely longer than that, but at the same time, these past 15 days have flown by in a manner that no one could prepare me for. Parents are sure to understand this already. It's something that I couldn't understand on my own, not before this. I won't ever say to non-parents, "Oh, you'll understand when you have children of your own." That wouldn't be very fair. But for myself, no, I couldn't understand it before this little man came into my world.
Some other things I now understand:
- I can love something greater than I ever knew possible.
- Breastfeeding is more challenging than anyone lets on, but it's just so cool to see that my baby can survive on my care alone.
- I can operate on minimal sleep...at least for now.
- I've reoriented myself, my needs, my wants. My needs and wants are that my son's needs and wants are cared for.
- A smile on his face and a smooth unworried brow are more deeply satisfying than I ever could have guessed.
Something else I understand? It's going to take some time for me to get back to my pre-pregnancy fitness levels, but that's the goal -- getting back to a 300 pound deadlift, pressing the 24 kg kettlebell, performing weighted pull-ups and pistol squats. Heck, maybe I'll even try and get back to my sub-6:30 mile time, even though I haven't classified myself as "a runner" in years. For as much as I've reoriented myself, I still am myself, and making time for my health is even more important now. I've a son to care for. I want him to see a strong woman in action. Besides, that strength has already paid off a hundredfold. Case in point:
Nurse: "It could take up to three hours to deliver your baby."
Me (internal monologue): "Is that a challenge?"
Baby gets delivered 40 minutes later, and the doctor and nurses tell me I'm the best "pusher" they'd ever seen.
See? Just like I said in a blog post not too long ago, a strong pelvic floor is really really important.
While I continue to heal, I'll stick with my unilateral loaded carries (hey, toting around an eight-pound baby in a car seat is way harder than it looks) and my nightly walks up and down the halls, cooing little Roan to sleep. But that said, don't stray too far from Beautiful-Strength.com, I'll be back to posting metabolic conditioning workouts, movement tutorials, recipes, and more in no time because you've got to make time for your well-being. And that's exactly what I'm going to continue to do.